Some Last Minute Thoughts Before We Go

As of last Thursday night (today is Sunday), Rebekah’s Make-A-Wish trip is underway. Here is another picture of at her “kick off” party.

Rebekah, Sarah, Mommy and Beth (from Make-A-Wish)Going Through The Goody Bag Make-A-Wish Brought With Them

This should be a fun exciting time and we are hoping to make many posts over the next several weeks with lots of pictures so that we can bring you along for the excitement.

As we have told you from day one, however, this is not just about the good but rather a diary-like blog that lets you into our hearts so here goes. This is difficult. The getting all of the work done in the office so that daddy and mommy can be gone has been difficult and has meant for some very long days the last several weeks. In addition, the whole idea of getting packed to take two “toddlers” and all their stuff across the country for two weeks is beyond difficult. Will it be 6 bags, 8 bags or more? We still don’t know. Mommy has spent the last several days packing and repacking trying to get it right. We are very grateful that Grandma A borrowed the girls yesterday for a day and night at her house. That has helped a lot and even let mommy and daddy go out to dinner alone last night – we can’t remember when that last happened!

The above is just normal difficult. On top of that we are having a lot of emotional difficulties with this. There are a slew of kids that are not doing well right now. Josh, Gage, Rachel, LaBrie (new) and more. We constantly have these little ones on our hearts and tears are often in our eyes. In many ways it does not seem fair to us that we are where we are. It does not seem fair that, at least for now, we only have side effects to deal with. It just comes down to nothing about kiddo cancer being fair. But it is more than this, it is more than just above normal difficult. The most difficult thing is thinking about some of the other kiddos that are now in heaven and thinking about some of them that went home to heaven very shortly after their Make-A-Wish trip. Given where we are in our treatment schedule and how things are going, it does not make a lot of sense but that doesn’t matter. It was easy not to think about these things when our trip was still a long time away. Now that it is upon us, however, all of these thoughts and emotions are just beginning to flow and we are, even if just a little, afraid.