Visit Rebekah's Page to get updates, read messages and send messages to Rebekah and her family through comments. This is a public "diary" of a family whose little girl started a battle with inoperable cancer in April 2005. In December 2007 our house burned down. And in September 2009 Mommy was diagnosed with a terminal disease (a genetic form of ALS) that took her to Heaven in July, 2011, leaving Daddy and two young girls to make it on their own. Over several years of ups and downs, you will get into our hearts, minds and souls as we share joys and sorrows. It can sometimes be very difficult to read. We hope it is also uplifting. Please find joy in what you read here.
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Tuesday, December 01, 2009



Forgive Me For I Am Alone...

"Daddy, where's mommy?"

"Daddy, when is mommy coming home?"

"Mommy come back??"

Tonight these were easy questions to answer. "Mommy is at Bible Study and she will come back before you wake up." But soon, oh too soon, the answer to these questions will not be so easy.

I sat with Sarah tonight going through one of her books learning about coins, their values, counting and all. Rebekah counted some with us and played in the playroom some. It was just the three of us after dinner tonight while mommy was out at Bible Study. "Daddy Night" with the girls is a delight for me - but I am scared to death for the time when every night will be daddy night ... every day will be daddy day ... every moment of every day will be nothing but daddy and the girls and our wonderful memories of mommy. I don't want that day to come. I am not ready for that day to come.

The house is now quiet, just the noise of the wood stove cracking and the noisy fan above spinning around and around and around. My brain too is spinning and my tears are falling as I miss mommy oh so much; and this time she is gone for only a couple of hours - this time.

Forgive me, for I am alone...

10 Shared:

At Tuesday, December 01, 2009 9:39:00 PM, Blogger Sara Left a thought...

Scott, while you feel so alone, I hope you can take comfort that your tears are not the only ones falling for your family. Frances has touched so many lives. She is an amazing woman, wife, and mother.

She is loved by so many. I wish I had words to take away the pain.

With love,
Sara, Eric, Alex & Tessa-Lynn

 
At Wednesday, December 02, 2009 1:13:00 AM, Blogger Suzy Left a thought...

I can only imagine how much this hurts and I wish things were different for you. Remember though, you are not truly alone - for one thing there are people round the world who care, even though they don't know you.

 
At Wednesday, December 02, 2009 3:41:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous Left a thought...

Praying for you. I know that you will never be alone. I know that you have family, friends, your beautiful daughters and most importantly God with you always. Still, what you are going through is unimaginable and I, like everyone else am hurting for you and feel your pain. I hope it helps to know that others are crying with you and praying for you. Take care of yourself.

 
At Wednesday, December 02, 2009 6:30:00 AM, Anonymous Marie in Michigan Left a thought...

I can't even imagine what goes through your mind daily, hourly, minute by minute. As others have said you aren't alone for you have two amazing daughters and the most wonderful God that will be looking over you and walking with you daily forever. And Frances will always be there guiding you through step by step. Prayers continue for your family during these times.

Marie

 
At Wednesday, December 02, 2009 6:46:00 AM, Blogger Debbie Left a thought...

No words...just tears to keep yours company.

 
At Wednesday, December 02, 2009 8:10:00 AM, Blogger GottwaldMari Left a thought...

I too am alone, and it happened to me long before I ever dreamed it would. You and Frances are dear to me, as you both were to Mike as well. I share your tears, and I am praying for all of you. Please know that I am only a phone call away if you need me. Give Frances a hug from me.

 
At Wednesday, December 02, 2009 12:48:00 PM, Blogger Deb Left a thought...

Scott....I have no words....only tears and prayers....I wish there was something more that I could do or say.

...praying for you to feel God holding you close.

 
At Wednesday, December 02, 2009 8:45:00 PM, Anonymous Darlene Left a thought...

"Peace I leave with you. My peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled. Neither let them be afraid."
Please, God. Give my friends your peace.

 
At Friday, December 04, 2009 1:06:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous Left a thought...

Thinking of you - crying with you.
Take care, Wyla and Family

 
At Sunday, December 06, 2009 11:16:00 AM, Anonymous jodi tucker Left a thought...

With tears for you all....echoing Deb and Darlene's comments, too.
I want to fly out west sometime in 2010. Need to work out details after Bethany's wedding. love and prayers, Jodi

 

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