Scans Friday, Birthday Saturday

It is scan time again. Well, it is past scan time. They were due in November, but Rebekah got sick when we had them scheduled, so we had to postpone them. Now they are here. It is always an emotional time for us... It seems this week we've been asked hundreds of times "how is Rebekah doing?" With each question, we have to question it ourselves. "As far as we know she is cancer free, but we've got scans this week so we'll know more next week." becomes our answer. Meanwhile, we realize that our life could change dramatically once again. Any time we have scans, that can be the case. It is a nerve wracking, emotionally draining time. But, it is part of our reality...

What will the scans show? We don't know. Nothing in particular is worrying us about a return of the cancer, but it is not always evident. After all, that is why we do the scans. All we can do is live today as if Rebekah is cancer free and pray for "cancer free" results and for God's grace, protection and guidance as we travel this road. When will it get better? Does it ever get better? I just don't know the answer to those questions. Some days I wish I did.

Friday morning, we will have to be at the hospital early to try to get Rebekah's panorex before the MRI and Chest CT. She doesn't get to eat in the morning, so we have been talking about it today. Generally, we will talk about the next day's activities before we go to bed - so the girls know what to expect. They do seem to do better when they know what to expect.

Saturday is Rebekah's birthday! She will be turning 6. She will be a "big" 6 year old. She got to take cookies to school today to celebrate with her classmates. She seemed to be excited to take the cookies. The note came back from school that she acted embarrased when the class sang happy birthday to her. We will have a family birthday party for her Saturday night. She has decided that she wants a tractor cake just like her sister had. That makes mommy happy, because it takes much less time to decorate than the Dora cake does.

My little girl is growing up!