Visit Rebekah's Page to get updates, read messages and send messages to Rebekah and her family through comments. This is a public "diary" of a family whose little girl started a battle with inoperable cancer in April 2005. In December 2007 our house burned down. And in September 2009 Mommy was diagnosed with a terminal disease (a genetic form of ALS) that took her to Heaven in July, 2011, leaving Daddy and two young girls to make it on their own. Over several years of ups and downs, you will get into our hearts, minds and souls as we share joys and sorrows. It can sometimes be very difficult to read. We hope it is also uplifting. Please find joy in what you read here.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

"First Communion." Caution - A Bit Deep

For those of you who are not particularly religious, you may want to skip this one.

Today we went to church again. As many of you know we have a very strong faith and belief in God. We firmly believe that Rebekah is alive today because of the prayers that so many of you have lifted up. And we are where we are because God has given us so much strength. We would not have been able to survive ANY of what we have been through in the last 3 years without God carrying us along.

But our faith in God notwithstanding, our church experiences have not been the best during the same time. Now don't get me wrong, MANY churches have come forward and helped in MANY MANY ways, but our fellowship experiences have been, well, saddening. It has actually been quite a few months since we have set foot into a church for a service. I only tell you this so that you have a background for today's experience.

God brought us to a church that we have not been to before. One here in our own small town and one that we have been "avoiding" for a while, looking for excuses not to go to, and in many ways trying hard to ingore God's calling. But in HIS infinite wisdom He used alot of people to orchestrate a lot of things so that we would be in this church this morning, this particular morning.

The girls wanted to go to church. They wanted to dress up in pretty dresses. And they were happy to be with mommy and daddy for the worship (music) time. Well at least Rebekah was as Sarah was a bit noisy and had to go back to the sound proof room with mommy. It has been a long time (many years) since I have held Rebekah in my arms during praise choruses and worship music. She is now very heavy to hold up for 3-4 songs but she and I both enjoyed it A LOT. I have missed it.

Immediately after worship time was communion. Rebekah sat on my lap and when the bread was passed around I took a piece and held it in my hand until the church took "the body" as a group. As I started to eat the bread Rebekah looked at me and asked "me too daddy?" I broke my piece and shared it with her. Then the cups were passed around and again we waited for the church to take "the blood" together. And again Rebekah and I shared the cup. Our belief is that communion is representative of Christ sharing his body and blood with us and not literal. In the same way I was able to today, for the first time, share Christ's body and blood with my little girl.

This was not like a catholic "first communion" where the child is making a decision on their own to accept Christ's "body" and I am not likening this to that. BUT this was the first time that I have shared Christ with her in this very intimate way. And it is something that is very special to me because all I could think about as it happened was to be grateful to God for letting her live long enough to have this moment with me. Many of us take for granted that our children will grow to the next stage of their lives, and then the next after that. In our case the fact that we could share Christ in this manner today is nothing less than Miraculous and that was impressed upon me quite heavily. I cried tears of joy through most of the service. Praise God for how He can, and does, make things happen to His glory.

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At Sunday, February 10, 2008 9:55:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous Left a thought...

That is so precious! Thank you for sharing. Beautiful! It is so easy to take things for granted and you reminded me of that again tonight. I needed that.

At Sunday, February 10, 2008 10:00:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous Left a thought...

This made me cry. I am smiling to think of such a beautiful experience.

At Sunday, February 10, 2008 11:36:00 PM, Anonymous The Roscoe Family Left a thought...


At Monday, February 11, 2008 4:51:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous Left a thought...

How beautiful and precious each moment is! It always pays to be sensitive to the Lord's leading. May you share many more wonderful moments together!
love and prayers,
Friends in Tennessee

At Monday, February 11, 2008 12:55:00 PM, Blogger JodiTucker Left a thought...

Glad you were able to share this moment together!! Hope that the Lord leads you to the place that he wants for your church family. We need community, as God desigend us this way!

At Monday, February 11, 2008 4:12:00 PM, Blogger Donetta Left a thought...

Oh Darling I can so share your touching joy! How holy and deep a gift. I know that hurt people hurt people and at times Christians can be the cruelest of them all. We think we have answers in immaturity and can really make life terrible for those who are suffering. May I as a representative of the greater body of Christ apologized to you and to your family for all the ignorant hurtful judgmental arrogance that you have experienced.
It is the most delightful thing to know you have shared this time of worship with her. She and your other daughter are so beautiful as are you. I too have known the absence of LOVE where one would think to find it most. Just remember hurt people hurt people. God set Christ for the sick and wounded of this world and boy do we all need him. Thank you for sharing such an intimate moment.

At Monday, February 11, 2008 10:08:00 PM, Blogger The Secret Life of Kat Left a thought...

That's wonderful!

At Wednesday, February 13, 2008 9:13:00 AM, Anonymous aunt annie Left a thought...

What a very special time for you and Rebekah. I'm so glad you were able to share it together. Hugs.

At Wednesday, February 13, 2008 10:56:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous Left a thought...

Wed., February 13, 2008 AM

"All things work together for good for they that love the Lord." I can certainly attest to this after living with the results of a severe brain damage of my baby girl years ago. ur hearts were so wounded and we grieved for her future as well as for the loss of our hopes and dreams. The pain was so great that we were forced to lean in closely to the healing heart of our Lord Jesus. He drew us closer, and helped us redirect our lives to develop a work to make a difference for others, both adults and children whom the world had wounded. How would we have really known otherwise? Now, looking back, we thank God for this experience, even though we still feel pain. We and others have had the opportunity of reaching out in many, many healing ways to help restore the lives of others. We had walked the road; but we were never alone, as Jesus was and is our companion through it all. Yes, we, also, were given new hearts, ears and eyes for appreciation of the gift of each Precious child. Never again, did we take our children or other children for granted! Bless you for experiencing this during your time of communion together. You will have many, many such experiences as you continue to walk the road the Lord has laid out before you. This is a very high calling, indeed. You all continue to be in my love and prayers, Ann Scott

At Tuesday, March 18, 2008 9:53:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous Left a thought...

Dear Rebekah, I am so glad you got to share this wonderful experience with your daddy!
Robyn in SoCal


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